Mel's Manifesto

Yet here, Laertes! Aboard, aboard for shame!
The wind sits in the shoulder of your sail,
And you are stay'd for.
There ... my blessing with thee!
And these few precepts in thy memory
Look thou character. Give thy thoughts no tongue,
Nor any unproportion'd thought his act.
Be thou familiar, but by no means vulgar.
Those friends thou hast, and their adoption tried,
Grapple them to thy soul with hoops of steel;
But do not dull thy palm with entertainment
Of each new-hatch'd, unfledg’d comrade. Beware
Of entrance to a quarrel but, being in,
Bear't that th' opposed may beware of thee.
Give every man thy ear, but few thy voice;
Take each man's censure, but reserve thy judgement.
Costly thy habit as thy purse can buy,
But not express'd in fancy; rich, not gaudy;
For the apparel oft proclaims the man;
And they in France of the best rank and station
Are of a most select and generous chief in that.
Neither a borrower, nor a lender be;
For loan oft loses both itself and friend,
And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry.
This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man.
Farewell; my blessing season this in thee!
-- William Shakespeare

I had my blog on private over night and will possibly leave it this way for a few more days but I have come to realise I have nothing to hide, I have nothing to be ashamed of, how I express my opinions on my own blog, which is my online diary, are exactly that... my opinions, not facts, not unquestionable truths, just my feelings.

I have never and will never been a fan of hypocrites, as Shakespeare said To Thine Own Self Be True, if at the end of the day I can look in the mirror and know I have been true to myself then I have nothing at all to be ashamed of.

If you want to harass me for being me, go ahead and do it I am always happy to have the errors of my ways pointed out so I can become a better me BUT do not harass me for being me while doing the same things yourself, especially if you are going to claim that your actions and words are more justified!

I have had extremely hurtful accusations, unfounded at that, leveled against me and from now I will NEVER let you or anyone else hurt me in that way. I will surround myself with people who truly love me, for me, and not people who are only here to make themselves look and feel better. You will not get to me, you will not bring me down to your level and you will not make ME feel bad or ashamed over things that have nothing to do with me.

I am not self-centered, I wish once in a while I could be maybe then I could get a little more sleep! I am not delusional, except maybe when I am extra lacking in the sleep department and I do care what happens to other members of my extended family. I did not need to call anyone because I knew what was happening at the time as I was with mum and dad when they got the phone call. BUT if you feel that way then I am happy for you to have those opinions, I am happy for you to express them and I am happy to not be involved with you any more.

It is a rare day that I will let the little things get to me and it is an even rarer day that I will blog about it, but that rare day has come and sometimes if feels good to let the hurt out, in a way that is not hurting anyone unless you let it.

In past months the things that have been happening have angered me, they have disgusted me and they have hurt me because they have hurt people in my family but until today I have not been able to fully comprehend the depth and breadth of others feelings towards me. What I have done, I may never know, and to be honest right now I don't care, and I know that the hurt experienced, real or imagined, by others is obviously too much to "forgive and forget" but it is time for me to move onto the next chapter...

So, come with me or stay behind but hold onto your hats it's going to be a fun ride...

Mel

P.S. It won't let me do spaces between paragraphs so sorry if it is a little hard to read! LOL