Just thinkin'

I like to think, it is such a weird thing really but honestly it must be about my favourite thing in the world to do.
Sometimes I end up thinking too much but quite often I think about things just the right amount to make me happy.
My favourite place to think is in the car and with 3 kids and a husband who works away I seem to be in it an awful lot! I often blog in my head while I am driving but it hardly ever makes it onto the page, wouldn't it be great if I could ESP it to the internet, would save my fingers all this work huh?! LOL
So, what am I thinking today?

I am thinking about how I have the sweetest baby in the world, she is next to me on the couch wiping my face with a tissue as I type, why... I have no idea, maybe I look sweaty, maybe my nose looks like it is leaking... hhmmm, who knows?

I am thinking about how lucky I am to have the family I do, while there are parts I would change if I could I think it is amazing how in the last 6 months since my turning point I have been so blissfully happy, I did as I said I was going to, I have put those people I wrote about out of my head and my heart, I do not care what happens to them, I do not care what they think about me or whether or not they think I should apologise. I am proud that I act with dignity and I am not only being true to myself but true to those around me. I sometimes feel bad for mum that her family has such a rift but I hope one day everyone can see that some things are meant to be.

I am thinking how glad I am to be 28. I always used to think I knew enough about the world and people in it when I was younger but honestly as I get older I am coming to realise holding onto hurts and grievances are not worth hurting my heart for. I KNOW now how happy life can be when you don't let the bullshit drag you down, when you stand up for what you believe in it feels good.

I am thinking about all those children in Perth who are riding in ill-fitting carseats and in no carseats at all. I wish there was some type of intervention program that happens as you leave the hospital with that precious bundle, you know some type of course that you must sit through so you understand the dangers of putting a child in the wrong seat but I guess the problem with that is some people just choice not to get it so what would we do with all those who failed the course?!

I am thinking I will give DLS a go again this year, every year I have been against it but I have decided to keep an open mind this year, maybe I can live with it. Makenzie seems to think she can, she woke at 7:15am new time this morning which is what time she normally wakes so someone must have wound her clock forward last night! LOL This years transition seems easier than last year and the year before, we were even eatting and in bed at the same time as normal tonight so there may be a light at the end of the anti-DLS tunnel...

I am thinking about how much anger I used to have and how much I don't have anymore, hhmmm, not sure why though. I am wondering if it comes back to the other "thinking note" about being 28, maturity is a wonderful thing I think...

maybe I need to stop all this thinking, if I am this calm and content at 28 where will I be in another 5 years?! LOL