Welcome to my life!

Okay, so I was in a bit of a contemplative mood the other day and wrote this following post. I got interrupted and lost my momentum so didn't want to post it but after much poking and prodding from the wonderful Shelby I am going to hit the "publish post" button and then pretend like i didn't so i don't get an attack of embarrassment! LOL

Sometimes, I look in the mirror and wonder who the old lady staring back at me is.

I am so old I can actually see wrinkles, real honest to goodness wrinkles. Not just those ones you get creasing up your face from sleeping funny when you have had a hard night on the booze or those ones from too many hours trying to pass King Bowzer on the final level of Super Mario Bros but real life messing up my face because I am full of stress and worry and hurt and anxiety wrinkles.

My oldest daughter turned 9 a week ago, that morning I looked in the mirror and found I had gained yet another wrinkle. But the longer I looked the more I realised they aren't actually "real life messing up my face because I am full of stress and worry and hurt and anxiety wrinkles" they are actually closer to life lines. This one between my eyes is from the first time I held my newborn baby in my arms and I cried at the thought of insignificant me creating something so wonderful. That one around the corners of my mouth is from all the smiles I have given to strangers down on their luck and in need of a friendly face. The ones around the corners of my eyes are from late nights laughing with good friends and good music or early mornings with playful toddlers.

It all makes me think a little, in 29 years of life I have had ups and downs, happiness and sadness, love and hate and all the things in between. I have experience the joy of children, the heartache of loving and losing, the pain of illness and the happiness of having a best friend and I still have so many years to go. I still have so many life lines to achieve, one for my first grandchild, one for my first child's wedding, one for all the years of marriage (Okay, that will probably be more than one, who am I kidding!!! LOL). While I have earned all of my life lines I have already and will deserve the ones I earn in years to come I wouldn't take a single one away because they are not only life lines on my face but they are also etched on my heart and in my mind, they make up who I am